i missed it.

So, today i supposed i should sent my brother to the airport. you know what? this is the first time my brother won't be with us. He's going alone. and so, I need to ask for permission for my little brother because he still got one more subject. and this is when the hard part came. I hate it. WHY? I don't know that asking for permission is this hard. Hello! I'm trying to catch the train! they are some people that didn't REALLY understand about this matter. I WANT TO SENT MY BROTHER. and so what happened? I didn't sent him. there's no way that we can catch the train and went to the airport. yeah, so that's why I cried today on my way home. I mean, this is the first time that I won't see my brother for almost more than a week. I'm so embarrassed because some of my friends is at the station too. and, I'm the kind of people who WILL cry more if someone try to calmed me down. so, rather than going there and greeted them, I sat at the stairs. but then one of them came. I'm really sorry. It's so foolish of me. And I can't tell him the reason why i cried at that time because I WILL definitely cry harder. and I told him to go away. so he left. but then the 2 girls came. well, i just wanna say: Thank you. they cheered me up. and then the others is walking my away and i just said that i don't want them to see me like this and so the girls cast them out. kinda. hahaha... I'm really thankful because I have a caring friends like them. oh no, the tears is pouring down again

this is

FREEDOM. oh God, thank you so much. I don't care as long as I passed the exam. all that exam.

And now, muahahahahahaha... the time to play has come! I WILL play. all game that I know and I (my brother) have. I won't touch my books. nor will I look at it.

Today.. hmmm what about today? well, I play Call of Duty again. last time I played for 1 hour. and this time? 1 and a half. wooo hooo! victory. what? no. nothing victory.

Kinda sad today. and bad mood again. well, the bad mood is not that bad. but it is bad.

I think I should be more hyper because all my exam has ended, but nope. I don't feel like it.

Friendship,
again this thing crossed my mind
I really think I can trust my friend
well, trust is not so important I guess
Am i the only one who care about this?
About the our-ness of us?
AM I?
Then it's USELESS
I should have noticed it from the beginning
it is useless. trash. junk

ps: doli, oh doli.

bye.

Shake hands

Shake hands for some people, might be something not so special. Well that's what I thought. But now, I mean today, shake hands is special. The feeling when my hand touched the other person hand gave me this chill all over my body. But it's not the cold chill. Somehow it's warm. Maybe I'm just being over reacting (well, I am over-everything) but this thing is new for me. not the shaking hands, but the chills. Whenever I shook hands with people, it's just shake hands. you know, you touched your hand to the other person hand and shake it. there used to be no chills all over my body. so how can that happened today?

Okay let's talk about today. today = FUN. me and my fellow girl friends... wait, the story contain so many embarrasing stuff so I guess I will write it in Indonesian. Gw ama temen2 gw yang cewek emang udah lama ngerancang ini. Dan tadinya mo dilaksanakan hari Sabtu tapi tidak berhasil, jadi hari ini baru kami berhasil! Apa kah Plan kami yang sangat rahasia itu? Sampe anak cowok tidak boleh tau? Wkwkwkwk.. kami mau main Call of Duty 4 di warnet di The Mall. Alasannya? simpel. Karena kami pengen tau apa enaknya sih main CoD sampe anak cowok ketagihan gitu. Dan ternyata people, main CoD itu emang seru! Yah mungkin gw ngerasa seru krn mainnya bareng tmn2 gw. Kalo main sendiri ga tau sih. Belom nyoba. Abang gw ada sih di komputernya tp CoD 5. Takutnya beda.

Tau ga sih? Retna tuh heboh BANGET. Pas kami baru pulang nih ya, dia langsung manggil2 “cepet ren! Cepet! Ntar ga keburu!” okay deh jadi gw jg panicking. Terus kami (gw, Uri, Retna, Farah, Ira, Vinca) lari. Yes, kami lari. Dari sekolah sampe ke The Mall udah kayak orang dikejar setan padahal kayaknya bahkan ga ada yang nyadar kalo kami ga ada. Bahkan pas udah di The Mall tinggal ke CC aja kami tetap lebay. dan begitu udah nyampe kami kan pada bayar buat 30 menit doang. Sumpah kami SOTOY. Ga ada yg tau gimana mainnya, ga ada yang pernah main, tp SEMUA sotoy. Bener2 dah.. nyari game nya aja kami ga bisa men. Pas kami udah bisa buka nih game nya, tiba2 Fikri ma ank cowo lain dtg. Dan mereka SHOCK. Wkwkwkwk makan tuh. Girls Rule! Yea tapi akhirnya kami minta bantuan Fikri agar bisa berhasil main game itu. Hahaha.. seru abis dah. Gw mainin profile nya si ‘Valentino’ dan seruuu! Gw masih ga ngerti senjata2annya tp oke lah.. anak cowok kyknya lebay banget gw main. Sialan. Dan tmn2 gw pada klh smua ma gw. Muahahahha.. emang gamers sejati dah gw. Udah gt kan ga kerasa 30 menti abis, gw lngsng nambah 30 mnt lg. Hahahaha.. Retna jg sih. Yea dan Fikri jadinya ikut main sama sapa lg gw ga tau. Dan susah deh klo anak cowo udah gabung, tp gpp lah :P

Wow, long story I guess. But hope you don’t mind. Keep visiting my blog! Hahaha... just wait, I will have another long story for tomorrow.

okaybyeloveyouallmuahmuahdah.irenehassignedout:P

okay, i get it.

Okeh. thing's can't get any worst right?
yes, it's true. i don't like you anymore
but why? i don't need it anymore. your excuse.
just leave me. leave me alone like we didn't know each other
i know. i know you're lying
all of it. all of your words, none of them is true
thanks. thank you for all you've done.

Thank you for the beautiful lies. I really hope everything will be better for you :)

now, talking about my feelings
i feel like I'm becoming so weird. towards 'him'
you know, him.

I'm truly weird

i should've not said that. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
now i want to scream like hell.
you keep ruining my days

please forgive me. today's post is just... lame

okayokaykeepitcool.i'mouttahere:D

waiting for something that i don't know

People! I have "successfully" finished my practical exam
big yea for me. and so the only one left is the stupid normal school exam.
I'll beat you! and because this day is somehow feels like a special day, I'll continue to write in Indonesian :)

Gila. entah kenapa beberapa hari ini gw ngerasa nungguin sesuatu. tau ga sih rasanya kayak ada sesuatu yg kurang dan lo tunggu2? nah itu lah yg gw rasakan. padahal ga jelas jg sih apaan. bego dah. dan yea gw pengen botakin Gifari deh (a.k.a: Ifal). dari hari apa ya? sabtu yg lalu apa ya? eh ga tau jg deh. pokoknya dia selalu bilang gini ke gw: Jangan ke ge-eran ya ren.

Oh please! gw ga ge-eran kok santai aja. dan setiap gw nanya ma dy maksudnya apa, dy ga mo ngasi tau. yah sudahlah lebik baik tidak usah terlalu saya pikirkan atau nanti saya akan menjadi stress. saya capek you know? ya anda sekalian pasti tidak tahu. perasaan ini yg gw rasakan dan memberi rasa yg merangsang perasa (oke, lupakan apa yg barusan anda baca). ehem, intinya gw lg kesel. ga nyambung ya? ya sudah disambung2in saja.

gw geje. ngerasa nungguin sesuatu tp ga tau apa ato siapa. ngerasa kesel bgt sampe ke bawa bad mood, tp ga tau ama apa ato siapa. oh ya dan gw jg ngerasa dikhianati (lagi) tp kali ini gw tau knp. geje sih alesannya. yah, tapi apa sih sebenernya yg ga geje dalam hidup gw?

pengen deh teriak2 geje ngelepasin stress, tp UAS masih menanti jadi sepertinya harus ditunda dulu. pengen melaksanakan segala rencana kelas kami. tp yea, lagi2 masih harus menunggu UAS. susah... susah... nasib dah jadi anak kelas 3 smp -____-

Well lastly I wanna thank my God. thank you for today, thank you for the cloud as well as sunshine, thank you for the food, thank you for the time I can spend with my friends and family. Thank you, thank you, and thank you.

okayloveyouallmuahmuahbyebye!thankyouforvisiting:D

Blog Award

First thing first : Thank you
Thank you Farah for giving me this opportunity :P kinda "lebay" i know.
well, i just realized that Nanda also gave me the same award (sorry, sis!) and i wanted to say thank you too. It's seem that only "thank you" is not enough, but that's all i can say :(
Well, i guess i need to pass this award. so here's the LUCKY person :)

1. Farah Savira
2. Delannoy Belin
3. Vinca Rosea
4. Nadia Mahendrati
5. Retnali Sutardjo

And FYI, they're all my best friends :D


I just found out something important (only Indonesian can read this!) : UJIAN PRAKTEK lebih susah daripada UAN wooy!!! apalagi UAS ntar. mati aja gw!!!
okay, something new from me: this week is the worst. not because of the exam, but because of my mood. oh God, i ruined everything. I feel like I'm being so childish while everyone is well.. you can say care about me (ha. ha. pede gila) and yea, it's like I'm doing something really REALLY very extraordinary BAD. T____T I'm crying.
Sorry. I'm sorry. I'm very sorry. you guys don't know how sorry I am. I feel like throwing myself into the big hole so that no one can see me ever again.

that'sallfortoday:(

Craziness. Mood: down

today is a total madness.
I went to school at 9 because we still have this extra class for the normal school exam: UAS
nothing special i guess. except that ira (my "mommy") wore uniform, while the others didn't. and ipank wore sandals. the teachers is killing us. we're so damn hungry, you know.
from 9 am to 1.45 pm we didn't have any break.
so when the class finished, we went straight to the mall and went to the food court. but then, because me and belin thought the food will take a long time until it's ready, we went to the bookstore. I bought 4 books and belin bought 2. I think we didn't took so much time, but when we get back to the others, they finished eating. damn.
yea so we eat and we eat. there's still some of them with us. yea, thanks guys.
and then, this is when the THINGS happened.
but because it's so mad, and it involves many people's life (okay it's kinda over) i can't post it without their agreements. so, yea. let's wait.

hmm.. today i don't know why (well, i guess i know why) I'm depressed. my mood just blew up. maybe I'm the one that ruins my own mood. anyway, it's depressing :(

yea,that'sall.kindanotinthemoodtopostlongstory.sorryall:(