friendship rules (well, for me)

i guess friendship have rules.
even though it is not written, for me there are some unwritten rules.
and if you broke it, well dude, you are not my best friend anymore.
here are some of the rules ( i'll post the full one another time)
1. Best friend DOES NOT date best friend's ex.
it may sounds silly, but for me this is like the basic rule. even though your best friend does not like he/she anymore, you CANNOT date they're ex. trust me, it'll ruin your friendship sooner or later

2. If your bestfriend hates him/her , you SHOULDN'T be friends with them
it's true. no matter how nice they turned out to be, DON'T ever try to be more than acquaintance.

3. If your bestfriend is happy, you too.

4. If your bestfriend is sulking, let them be.
you just need to let them know that you are there for them

5. If somebody says bad things bout your bestfriend, slap them.

6. if in some point in your life you doubt your bestfriend, talk, chat, meet, or just text them
there are many times i doubted my best mate. i thought all sort of things that they already forgotten about me, or that they changed. but once we talked, or simply just chatted, i figured out how wrong i am

well, that's all for now. i have a mid semester examination tomorrow. and the first day is: PHYSICS

1st post in February :)

hi
basiclly im in my dad's office rite now and im really bored
hari ini hari pertama libur imlek...
hhhhh.. im so saaaad T____T
hari ini rencanya ke kantor bokap buat nge download film gt
ga bs ketemu ronaldoooo :(((((
gw dah nyampe di kantor bokap bahkan sebelum jam 8 pagi =.=
huaaaaaaaaaaaa
gile internetnya terlalu cepat disini. skrg gw ud bosen krn ud selese download2in sgala macem


jadi....
my bokap lg ngajar nih.
jadi saya bosan
dan saya berbuat bodoh:yea i know... sgt tdk penting

this month february, i want to know better about the people I love. i want to be more closer with them, including YOU! yes, you :D
hmmm saya tau mngkn saya jarang online dan menyapa tmn2 saya yg sudah lama tidak bertemu.dan krn itu saya ingin minta maap
saya kangen sama kalian, serius. sumpah, suer, ga boong.
cuman waktu tidak bersama kita dan lain- lain itu. mngkn saya gak banyak bercerita ttg kehidupan saya disini, tp nanti klo kita ketemu, pasti PASTI saya bakal ceritain semuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanya
jadi tunggu ya.

18-03-11

JANUARY: Ronaldo

bulan ini, bener2 bulannya ni anak yg namanya RONALDO.
gw kasi prolog dulu ye,
seumur idup gw, blm pernah gw nge fans sama yg namanya adek kelas. asli dah suer ga boong.
ampe ini nih.

gw lupa kpn tepatnya gw "nemu" tu anak. tp yg jelas ceritanya gini:
gw lagi ke kantin (typical story bgt dah -__- wkwk) tmn sebangku gw (yg bs disebut best friend gw disini, Monique namanya) lg beli makanan. nah krn kantin lt 5 itu kecil, jd klo istirahat itu penuh bgt. makanya gw nunggu si monik dgn nyender ke dinding aja.

gw lg nunduk gt kan, nah pas gw ngangkat kepala gw, DEP. tu anak ganteng nya masya oloh ada di dpn gw. dy jg lg nyender ke dinding gt. pas dy ngeliet ke gw, ya jelas lah gw pura2 ga ngelietin dy. pokoknya disitu gw udah nyebut dah. ganteng nya naujubileh (menurut gw). begitu monik udah selese, op kors gw kasi tau dy. nah pas wkt itu dy blm jelas gt ngelietnya. tp bsk nya, ya, dy udah kena virus ronaldo jg.

awalnya kami masih diem2 ngefans. serius dah. jadi klo dy lewat ato papasan gt kami cuman senggal-senggol. abis itu gw mo ke wc, eh si ronaldo keluar dr wc. langsung gw ngelirik badge namanya, dan itulah gw dapet nama dy Ronaldo. dengan bangga gw kasi tau monik. and it turns out bahwa kelas dy PAS disebelah kantin. gila, gila.. kyk jodoh aja

NAH, sekarang, itu udah kyk rahasia umum hahahahhaha
satu kelas udah tau, anak kelas ronaldo (kelas IX-9) udah tau, bbrp anak dr kls lain jg udah tau.
ga masalah sih sebenernya. orang ganteng kan pantes punya fans. yg paling dalem nya pas kami ngelewatin kls nya udah gt temennya bilang ke si ronaldo gini: "Ronaldo, ronaldo, itu fans mu"
wkwkwkwkk asooooooy!!!!

dan kami tuh tiap pagi jam 07.15 udah ke kantin nungguin si Ronaldo dateng.

si ronaldo mungkin emang bukan terlalu ganteng gmn gt buat org lain. soalnya smua anak chinese di kls gw pada bilang gt. tapi serius dah. dy itu.... apa ya? cool. ya, dia gak terlalu suka bersosialisasi (kyknya), tp dy punya tmn kok.tp mksd nya ga yg selalu mesti sama tmn2 dy.
udah gitu yg paling PALING PALIIIING bikin dy keren itu tatapan matanya. asli dah klo papasan ama dy itu, nahan napas men!! dy tu ngelirik ke samping ke kami aja itu rasanya udah mau pingsan! LEMAS MEN, LEMAS! hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

asli, jadi cowok kok ganteng kali.

dan dy lbh tinggi dr kami, dan dy pake kacamata putih, dan dy duduk di bangku ke-3 dr dpn di bagian tengah, dan dy dan dy dan dy dan dy

ciao <3~

you know, i've never been interested in flowers or stuff like that. but i read something, and even though it doesn't content anything about flower, it actually made me interested haha -__-
to this wonderful flower (i guess), blue daisy.

NEW SPIRIT \m/

okay kemaren saya banyak cakap sama farah di chatting jadi seperti nya saya merasa lbh baik untuk menghadapi januari huehehehehehehehhe...
hmm dan tmn sekelas gw disini td sms happy new year (padahal masi brp jam lg wkwk) but she's so cuteee so that makes me really happy
i absolutely got to share what the hell i've been doing for this 10 days holiday.

1. MOVIES
you know what? bapak gw is the best wkwkwk sebelum liburan me and him and my lil bro udah siap2 menghadapi liburan jd kami donlod melambaaaaaaaaaak film. gw nonton:
Tangled, How to train your dragon, Despicable me, Harry Potter 1-7, The sorcerer's apprentice, Megamind, A Christmas Carol, Monster vs Aliens, Oliver Twist, The Last Airbender, and for the 2nd time: Alice in Wonderland, Princess and the Frog, Shrek Forever After.
Isn't that amazing? XD

2. FOOD
keluarga gw berencana franchise-ing you know haha.. jadi kami nyoba bbrp restoran. yg terpenting: JANGAN PERNAH SEKALI PUN PERGI KE RESTORAN YG NAMANYA: DESA DESA. asli kami ga bakal datang lg buat kedua kalinya. makanannya GA ADA RASA U KNOW! betul2 ga ada rasa. klo mau ke bumbu desa aja. itu mantaps!

3. DLL (MOSTLY TV)
ASLI I LOVE KBS AND MTV. KMRN GW BARU NONTON KBS GAYO DAEJUN DAN OHMAIGOT KYUHYUN CAKEP SEKALI. GANTENG, LUCU, IMUT. AAAAA SEMUA DEH!
trus gw jg banyak baca komik. salah satu favorit gw ini:

ini tuh unyuuuuuuuuuuu bet ceritanya aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i really really really like it. ada jg satu lg judulnya: Meru Meru Mail. i know judulnya pelik. tp ceritanya hhhhhhhhhhhhh ngegemesin wkwkwk















oke, trus my mom bought me new earring hehe.. i'll upload it later. it's big -_- but my mom said it's not, so did my dad. -_________-

i'm back! kinda...

you know what? 2010 almost ended. well i guess you all have figured it out.
i noticed something quite peculiar about 10 minutes ago
i spent days and days and days thinking bout the past
and now i think i have come to a conclusion, i guess, human brain is complicated so you might want to be not so sure.
ekhem, so..
i miss my pal, good pal actually, i guess that shows.
i want to meet them, that shows too
i really have this positive energy coming to me a few days ago, that i will meet them again.
well now i'm telling you that i'm not so sure anymore. BIG not sure.
the reason is simple: i'm afraid.
now, this word "afraid" i used has a lot of meanings.
i got a lot spaces left so i'll type it all down

first, the greatest fear of all is.... forgot. i am not the kinda person that lose faith easily, and i'm still keeping this faith deep down down down down in my heart. but i'm just a human, obviously, so i have doubt. i didn't have enough faith that after next year i met them (maybe it's the last time i'll meet them) they will still remember me.

second, i am afraid of my jealousy. i have seen pictures, i'm happy seeing them happy, but still there's this little spark inside this human heart, a little spark of jealousy. i can't stop thinking that "i should've been there with them" or "i should have done that together with them" and stuff like that, you got the idea. i'm not happy with that

third, the last one maybe, i'm afraid of myself. you know, when i see those pictures i see something BIG. that they DID NOT change. but i'm afraid that i DID. maybe, i don't know. you can't judge yourself, mate. i honestly think something changed inside of me. but i don't know what it is, and i don't know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing. now, i don't have much positive energy around me lately (i can't even force myself to go to bath) so i have this thought that maybe, BIG maybe, it's a bad thing

you see, i can't even ended this years successfully with no regrets. i have regrets. i have wishes. too many wishes that my mind WILL blow up, literally. i have this mixed up feelings. i have this crumbled string inside my brain. i have this massive school nerve in my heart. and i still have a lot of things i want to say to the Lord, i have a lot of confessions, i have a lot of apologies to be told, i have a lot and lots and lotssss of "thank you" to be spoken. i have a lot of love to be shared.

now when the world seem so pitch black, your only choice is the Lord, and it will be totally great if you have some company besides you. you should be thankful for the people that stays besides you, always.

LIFE

i know. i don't deserve to talk anything about life when i'm still a high school student. but, please, this is my blog.
lihat lah blog gw wkwkwk udah lama ga diurus bet. maaf yaaa :)
gw baru buka blog lg hr ini. mostly krn bosen tp ada kangen jg kok.
begitu ampe dashboard, gw langsung nge-cek apdet2 kan. dan bener aja udah banyak yg nge post lg. yak langsung gw open satu2. daaaaaaaaaaaaan.. men, this brings back thousands of memory.

mulai darimana ya.. hidup gw dh.
jadi gini saudara2.. saya sadar hidup itu BERUBAH. dan saya tau kalau kita tdk bs beradaptasi, kita ga bakalan bs survive. gitu deh katanye.

TAPI.

gw udah punya temen2 disini. bsa dibilang gw emang memaksa diri utk beradaptasi dgn lingkungan. tp gw suka kok tmn2nya. mrk gila + gila + gila. dan baik. tp ada jg beberapa yg dengan bahasa Indonesia yg baik dan benar disebut: mengganggu hidup orang. klo d bahasa gw sih cukup dengan: kayak tai.

TAPI.

emang beda. BEDA itu udah merangkum segalanya men. gile, dan disaat gw ngerasa gw bisa, gw jatoh lagi dan gw menginginkan hari2 yg sudah berlalu itu kembali. gw secukupnya bisa menyadari kalo gw ga bakal pernah bisa balik lg tinggal di malay. dan kalopun gw bisa, gw rasa suasananya bakalan udah beda kan? tp gw bener2 ngerasa gw harus dan HARUS ketemu sama tmn2 gw lagi. dan itu mungkin tidak akan terkabulkan dalam jangka waktu dekat. gw benci gw masihlah anak kecil yang belum bisa ngelakuin apa yg gw mau. coba kalo gw org dewasa dan gw udah punya penghasilan, dgn gampang gw bisa kemana aja yg gw mau.

KANGEN itu dulu buat gw cuman perasaan sesaat klo pengen ketemu seseorang krn wkt kelas 3 masuk ampe hr sabtu, ga ketemu tmn2 itu cuman 1 hari bayangin! emang bener apa kata orang kalo kt baru bs ngehargain sesuatu itu kalo udah ilang. bkn berarti gw ga ngehargain, tp BENER2 ngehargainnya itu ya gitu. kalo udah gak ada.

dan di saat2 kyk gini, flashback dtg. dan itu bukan membuat keadaan menjadi tambah baik. yang ada ya kebalikannya.

gw hrs bilang hidup itu ga adil buat org2 kyk gw sama tmn2 gw. dunia ini terlalu.. adel, ira, belin, gw,shara, farah, retna, vinca, uri, murni, nadia, syeril, alya, gayuh itu bener2 udah klop ya. aib itu semua udah tau, semua udah ngertiin satu sama lain. semua udah saling MELENGKAPI. gw ga suka. gw tau itu salah dan harusnya tidak begini. tp men, perasaan gw menang dr otak gw. dan inilah yg gw rasakan:

GW PENGEN KETEMU TEMEN2 GW LAGI.

sebenernya kata2 temen ga cukup. bahkan temen baik pun udah ga bisa gw jadiin status gw sama org2 itu. gw sama mereka itu keluarga tanpa hubungan darah yang bisa saling melengkapi dan menghibur satu sama lain dan tidak mau ada konflik antara satu sama lain.
gw tuh melebihi cinta sama mrk. seumur hidup saya, saya ingin bersama mereka.

kalo gw bisa mendapat kesempatan memberi penjelasan ttg hidup saya:
hidup saya penuh dengan keluarga tanpa hubungan darah saya.