An irritating change

Sooo aloha and may God bless you!
Today i really need to let out my emotions, so pardon my languange.
We all have that one friend that changes after like, say, they have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Sometimes even before they have an actual relationship.
So first of all, though this may look one-sided, this is how i really feel.
I guess i'm just an old-fashioned person but i take friendship as a serious matter.
When i become friends with you, i will try my best to mantain that relationship. And i, too, will try my best to accept the other party the way they are.
That's why i expect the other party to do so, too. I am hoping too much i guess.
Small things that seems unimportant, i would like to know that too, if you want to share it.
Because i will talk to you from the most unimportant stuff in my life to the most important thing when i considered we are good friends.
I thought it was only in movies that (in my condition) boys could ruin girls' friendship. But it's true enough. And the most irritating thing is that i can't do anything about it.
But here's the truth, i don't like that guy and so i don't think i can support you liking that guy. He seems to me like a pansy.
A fucked up pansy.
I can be fake, really, all this time i've been faking the fact that i don't want to know any stupid crappy updates on your relationship with that guy,
But now i can't even fake it anymore.
I really wanna puke.
Disgusting.
And the truth is i really hate it when you say meaningless sentence like you want us to ask more about it. Oh, please!
And those tweets!!! Oh my gosh,
Calm down you blockheaded people.
Jijik tau ga sih ngeliat kalian RT2an ga jelas di twitter.
You guys are the reason i am fed up on twitter, thank you very much.
It's like this whole world is yours.
Well, do take it. I don't feel like being a part of your world anymore anyway.
I do think i'm not good with a crybaby person and a person who can't take their own choices, a person who is not mature enough.
I am not mature, but at least i'm not a crybaby and i do think friendship is above all (after family of course)
Keseeeeeel sebanget2nya
Kalo bs pengen rasanya ga usah bertatap muka lg, biar gw ga usah berakting trs
Capek
Ga enaknya hubungan di dunia ini tuh ga bs kangsung kyk "poof" ilang begitu aja
Sayang bgt..

taste of music

you know, one thing i really miss from my old school back in the neighbouring country is the people's taste of music.
i know having a friend does not always mean having the same taste of music. it does not work like that. and i really don't have any problem hanging out with my friends who really don't know, like, any band that i like.
seriously.
they don't know Good Charlotte, Arctic Monkeys, Blink 182, and even Keane!
i know what kind of music they listen to. rae japsen (i really don't know how to spell her first name), bruno, taylor swift and all of that.
and sure, it used to be no problem at all.
but the more i got sucked into bands i love, the more i feel like i really need somebody who knows these bands. The Strokes, Two Door Cinema Club, The Kooks, i don't know, Green Day, Linkin Park, anything!
it's really depressing, not having anyone to share your passion with. the more i think about it, the more i feel sick and wants to be left alone. at least outside of this town i'm sure there are guys who know about some of those bands.
here? there's only one guy that i know in my school who knows Keane.
others sure have "better" taste in music.
i always thought my big bro is over-reacting if a guy likes boyband or solo singer like bruno mars.
but now?
oh gosh, i really could understand his point of view.
it just doesn't feel right if a boy doesn't listen to a band.
real band.
the one with guitar, bass, drums, piano and stuff.
not the one with autotuned song, pretty guys, screaming girl fans.
ugh. it's nauseating.
i really. need. someone with better sense of music.
i'm sure i won't find any in this town.
that gives me more reason to leave this stupid town.
doesn't matter the fact that this town is my hometown.
it's rotten. the government, the people. i don't even know why anyone sane would want to live here.
call it whatever you want, but if you have seen better towns and actually lived in better town than this stupid town, i'm sure you would think the same thing as i do.
hate is a strong word, but i really really really hate this town.

not a good place to live.
not a good place to spend your childhood (which i'm glad i did not).
not even a good place for vacation!
i don't know what this town is good for.