Angkot, I'm in love.

Jadi saudara - saudari sebangsa dan se tanah air, gw seangkot lagi sama Daniel Julihartono Simanungkalit (a.k.a Ilay) hari Senin, tanggal 12 Maret 2012 ini. Kenapa ini harus gw post di blog? Krn ini epic bgt. Ga boong gw.
Jadi, hari ini kan gw ujian Kimia, ga usah ditanya gmn hasilnya. Essay gw ngasal + ga dpt jawabannya. Hmm, nice.
Terus krn kami trip 1 ujiannya, jam 10.30 udah keluar. Anak kelas 1 SMA yg ujian trip 2, abis kami. Nah gw ngajarin Ciripah bahasa inggris, makanya gw blm plg. Bahkan sampe ank kelas 1 udah keluar (kira - kira jam setengah 1). Nah tp tetep gw masih blm plg. Apatah lagi pake acara hujan, untung cuman bentar dan ga begitu deres. Akhirnya gw pulang tuh udah jam setengah 2. Masih rada gerimis sih, tp yaudahlah. Pas gw berdiri, eh astaganaga, seragam gw, dari kantong sblh kiri sampe ke badge namanya kotor coklat2 gt kena sesuatu dr meja-_- soalnya gw duduk nyender ke meja gt, dan ternyata kotor gewla. Abis itu gw numpang becak Ciripah supaya ga usah jalan becek2 krn sepatu gw udah ketawa (bolong/koyak/terbuka). Padahal itu sepatu baru di beli pas masuk kelas 2-_- miris. Gw naik angkot yg ga begitu lama dtg nya, dan gw udah nyelos aja pas ternyata si Ilay ga ada kan. Ya udahlah, pikir gw. Berarti ga seangkot. Nah baru 10 mnt jalan, tu angkot kena macet. Macet total. TOTAL. Ga bergerak sama sekali entah untuk berapa lama. Jd gw keringetan BUANGET. Itu ud kyk abis lari marathon. Gw stress, walopun untung msh bs dengerin lagu kan, gw stress soalnya takut ga sempet buat belajar di rmh. Masalahnya bsk gw ujian bahasa inggris dan ppkn dan bahannya sangat banyak you know. Gw membayangkan lah gmn kalo tiba2 si Ilay naik ntah drmn gt lah kan, jd kami akhirnya seangkot. Tapi terus pas gw menyadari keadaan gw yg sangat.... Sangat mengenaskan, lebih baik itu ga terjadi. Terus, sebagai anak teladan dan rajin menabung, gw mengeluarkan soal2 tahun lalu bahasa inggris gw, berniat untuk membahasnya di angkot. Jd gw udah seriuuuus bgt itu di angkot. Dan perjalanan pun berlanjut.
Kira - kira 15-20 mnt kemudian, angkotnya lagi ngelewatin ni Plaza Milenium (?). Tempat beli barang2 elektronik gt. Terus ada 2 anak cowok SMA naik. Karena 2 org, jd gw ga ada melirik sedikit pun. Seriusan. Gw nunduuuuk aja terus ngerjain soal2. Nah anak yg duduk pas di dpn kanan gw itu, kakinya ngeselin banget. Di lurusin gt, udah gt di naikin ke kursi gw. Emang sih, ga ada org lain kecuali gw, 2 anak sma itu, sama ada 1 anak smp. Gw duduknya dkt pintu._.
Singkat cerita, gw ngerasa diliatin gt, udah gt ni kaki bener2 mulai mengganggu. Jd gw mendongakkan kepala, melihat ke kanan, dan itu dia.

Dia.

Ilay.

Daniel.

Duduk.

JEGERRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jantung gw ud kayak org gila, gw langsung buang muka. Shock, seneng, merasa diri gw sangat freak, dll.
Hal pertama yg gw lakukan, tentu saja, menyimpan kertas soal itu. Gw........ Freak banget. Ga berapa lama kawannya turun, diikuti dengan anak smp itu.
Jadi

Gw

Tinggal

Berdua.


ANJIRRRRRRR DEWA BANGET OMAIGOT. TP GW GA BERANI NGELIET MUKANYA. DAN DIA ADA BAD HABIT DEH SUKA GIGIT2 KUKU. TP UNYU SAYANGNYA. TP KALO BS SIH JANGAN. DAN GW MERASA SANGAAAAAAAAAAAAAT BAHAGIA SEKALIGUS NGAIB. TAS GW UDAH GW PELUK ERAT2 SUPAYA GA KELIATAN ITU KOTOR YG COKLAT2-_- UGH. KAKI GW JG YAAAA UDAH DI LAP DIKIT SIH DR SBLM DIA NAIK, PAKE TISU. TP TTP AJA. KAOS KAKI GW ITU UD KENA BECEK, SEPATU JOROK, UNTUNG GA KELIATAN BOLONG NYA.-_-
Abis ituuu yaaaah, dia turun, gmn lg.
Suaranya.
Aaaaah

Dan perasaan selama gw di angkot itu gadak obat. Dewa.




Btw hari ini anak kelas 1 ujian Fisika, dan Freddy cuman bw alat tulis yg sepertinya hanya pulpen, pensil, penghapus dan ditaro di kantong celana, beserta buku tulis. Njir.

RFD.

Walaupun gw lagi minggu ujian gini, gw ga bisa menahan keinginan untuk nge post hal baru dalam blog gw. RFD. tiga orang yang selalu membuat gw mabuk kepayang.

1. R - stands for Ronaldo (yeah, kalian udah tau lah)
si ganteng dan cool
seriously, ya walaupun gw emang udah biasa aja ngefans nya sama dia. tp tidak bisa dipungkiri kalo dia adalah makhluk-- cowok paling ganteng di sekolah gw. ganteng kan relatif. tp menurut gw dia itu udah perfect banget kalo soal tampang dan gaya, ya... kadang membuat sedikit... ilfil tp toh gw cuman seneng liet mukanya. dia tipe anak2 gaul gitu loh, celana nge gantung, baju selalu keluar. tp dia pake kacamata. dan cowok ganteng yg make kacamata itu irresistible banget.

2. F - stands for Freddy
si ganteng dan pinter
kalo anak yang satu ini susah di deskripsi kan. btw dia ultah tgl 29 Februari. gw ngerasa sih dia baik, berdasarkan cara dia bergaul dengan temen - temennya. dia pinter, kalo yg ini beneran fakta. hal yang paling membuat Freddy sangat, sangat, sangat menarik itu adalah tatapan matanya. gw serius, siapa pun yang pernah tatapan mata sama dia, bakal cair. cair, men!!

3. D - stands for Daniel
si ganteng dan sedikit freak
Meet Daniel Juliharsono, kecengan paling up to date gw. wkwkwk.. dia anak kelas 1 (juga). sebenernya miris mengetahui kenyataan bahwa anak seangkatan gw ga ada yg bisa dijadiin kecengan -_- tp yasudahlah. dan banyak sekali hal yang perlu gw ceritain tentang dia. pertama, gw emang udah tau ada anak ganteng ini pernah seangkot sm gw. tp dulu gw tuh biasa aja. dan lagian gw ga pernah ngeliet dia di sklh, jd ya tidak terlanjutkan crushing nya. kedua, yeah dia seangkot sama gw, which is SESUATU banget kalo disini. ketigaaaa, dia indo asli (bukan berarti gw ada masalah sama indo campuran ya, buktinya Freddy sama Ronaldo kan indo campuran, tp maksud gw akhirnya gw punya kecengan yg se-kulit (?) dan lagian menurut gw Medan rada racist sih orang - orangnya. jadi kalo sm beda suku itu gw ud ga mngkn bgt deket, bukan berarti gw bisa deket sama si satu ini juga) anywayyyyy.. jadi baru2 ini gw ngeliet dia di sekolah. hari senin kemaren deh kayaknya. dan gw kok merasa "ni anak kok makin ganteng aja?" jadi begitulah, berlanjut ke tahap selanjutnya.

Pertama - tama gw harus mengatakan nama samarannya adalah Eli (baca: Ilay. pake bahasa inggris bro). soalnya ya.... begitulah. sejujurnya ngapain gw ngasi tau nama samaran kalo nama asli nya ud gw kasi tau ya -_-
jadi hari Selasa kemaren gw belajar bareng sama Ciripah, sekalian mau pulang bareng uli jam setengah 5. ternyata si Ilay ikutan les di sekolah!! pantesan gw udah jarang banget bs seangkot sama dia. yaampuuun tp krn gw pulang sama uli, gw naik becak, dan jadinya gw ga bisa pulang seangkot. padahal pas gw ngelewatin tmpt nunggu angkot itu, disitu dia awwww lagi nunggu angkot pastinya...

NAH. yang PALIIIIIIIIIIIIIING pengen gw ceritain ini kisah di hari Rabu.

jadi. gw belajar bareng ciripah (lagi). dan tadinya gw jg berniat nunggu uli pulang. taunya eeeh udah sampe jam setengah 5, si Ilay aja udah keluar les. dan si Ilay udah keluar sekolah, si uli masih belum muncul2. akhirnya ciripah narik gw suruh pulang aja. tentu aja gw naik angkot. gw kirain dia udah naik, ternyata dia lagi duduk di pinggir jalan itu loh, apa namanya? trotoar? gitu deh. untungnya dia enggak ada ngeliet ke kiri sama sekali , jd gw bs ngelietin dia sepuasnya (walaupun ga bisa liet muka nya)
selang beberapa menit kemudian, angkotnya dateng. dia naik duluan. baru gw. gw milih duduk di paling belakang. seperti ini:


Perlu diketahui kalo gw tuh duduknya udah di POJOK banget krn angkot nya rame. dan dimulailah 45 menit terindah gw di dalam angkot. ya sebenernya ga terlalu indah jg sih, soalnya gw keringetan, dan gw kayak org gila di dlm angkot itu bbm-an + twitter-an dengan gemini yg btw keypad nya sangat berisik -_-. dan yg paling bikin gw kesel itu, walaupun gw udah sedeket itu jaraknya sama dia, gw ga bs sering2 ngelirik!!! kenapa? soalnya begitu gw ngangkat kepala dr hape mau ngeliet dia, dia langsung ngeliet ke arah gw gt. jd gw harus langsung pura2 ngeliet ke arah lain. tapi dia sangatttt adorable!! seriusan gw ga boong. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
emang kalo udah suka itu, orang bisa jd segitu ganteng nya dalam apapun yg dia lakukan.

waktu dia nguap sambil nutup mulutnya, itu sangat unyu.

dan terus tb2 orang di depan gw turun. jadilah dia bergeser semakin dekat ke arah gw. gitu aja gw udah kayak orang gila paniknya. gw ga pernah menyadari keberadaan dia SEGITUnya sampe jantung gw demi dah, kayak abis lari dikejar hantu. keadaan seperti itu bertahan lumayan lama. sampe kira2 tinggal 15 menitan lagi nyampe ke rmh gw, orang depan gw keluar. OMAIGOT DAN DIA GESER DUDUK DI DEPAN GW. DI. DEPAN. GW.

gw gatau kaki anak cowok sepanjang itu. maksud gw, gw emang tau dia tinggi jg, tp yg bener aja?! gw udah bener2 di pojok angkot dan lutut dia ttp kena ke lutut gw. itu seriusan SEEEERRRRRRRRR gitu rasanya pas nyentuh. dan gw langsung membatu. kiri kanan men. jadi kaki gw tuh dua2 nya di antara kaki dia. OH.MAI.GOT. terlalu dewa beneran deh. dan gw beneran deh suka sama cowok yg nutup mulut nya kalo nguap. dia kayaknya capek banget, berkali - kali nguap, udah gitu ngucek - ngucek matanya. UNYU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! abis itu walaupun masih jauh dr tmpt dia turun, dia udah ngeluarin dompet, nyiapin ongkos turunnya. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. itu sangat menggemaskan.
udah gitu suaranya, oh suaranya. "pinggir ya bang" UGYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #DEAD #DEAD #DEAD

dan tadi gw sengaja sih sebenernya bermalas - malasan di sekolah nunggu anak kelas 1 keluar. soalnya mrk ujian trip ke - 2. dan ya pastinya gw ngeliet dia.
dia banyak tas. seriusan.
terakhir kali gw ngeliet dia rasanya tasnya wrn coklat. hari rabu itu wrn item, dan skrg udah krem. gile dah.
tp dia sibuk berbicara dengan kawan - kawannya. gpp, toh gw ga pengen dia ngeliet gw. ngaibbbb bro. pulang sekolah itu pasti rada2.......

Something something Day

Wokeh, quick post.
Hari ini gw dapet 3 coklat. tentu saja dari cewek.
Pagi2 teman sebangku gw (atau semeja?), namanya Jenny, ngasih gw coklat buatan dia sendiri *hiks
gw seneng banget. seriusan. dan itu tuh Dark Chocolate yg sangat sangat sangat gw suka. dan dari kemaren2 itu dia emang udah cerita kalo dia bikin coklat sendiri sama temen2 nya dan gw tenang aja, pasti bakalan dapet. tp ttp aja gw terharu. sangat. lagian pagi2 gw liet para couple2 di sekolah seakan2 dunia milik mereka, buat gw rada depresi jg hari ini.
Saking senengnya, begitu istirahat pertama, gw langsung makan tu coklat sama monik. gw lupa foto. intinya itu coklat kecil gt dibungkus sama plastik pink. aww so sweet deh pokoknya.
nah udah gt pas istirahat ke-2 monik dikasi coklat sama Urie. Dia seneng. banget. wkwkwk #foreveralone. ini coklat monik:

gw ga masalah men ga dpt coklat, seriusan._. tp trs Monik bilang, buat iren gak ada? gt-_- sebenernya ga enak sih, tp akhirnya Urie ngasih ini:

Dia suruh bagi2 utk rame2. okeee deh (Y) rencana nya bsk aku bawa trs makan sama2 Ila, Ciripah, Monik jg.
nah wkt pelajaran gw bbm-an sama Belin dan dia "ngasih" coklat jg:

Coklat apapun itu, gw yakin pasti enak banget.
Nah, yg paling mengejutkan pas istirahat makan siang, Fiona (tmn gw yg sangat oenyoeh) ngasih gw coklat jg!!!!!!!

Dan sekarang gw merasa SANGAT bersalah krn gak ngasih mereka coklat. rencana nya gw mau keluar bentar lagi. beli coklat, trs kasih mrk besok. siapa bilang cuman blh ngasih tgl 14? toh intinya rasa cinta gw kpd mrk semua. hoeks hoeks.

dan ya, se-miserable apapun hari ini, ttp aja ada dewa nya. Hari ini gw papasan sama Freddy dan Ronaldo dengan sangat dewa. ya, mereka nya sih yg dewa. intinya, si Freddy, anak ganteng nan baik nan rajin nan pintar nan flawless itu, sangat sangat menggoooooda. gw penasaran, anak cewek kelas dia ada yg ngasih coklat gw ya? kalo menurut gw sih ada -_-
anak cewek yg duduk di belakangnya. yg ketawa2 sama Freddy pas makan satu meja di kantin (UGH.)

Dan ya bagaimanapun harus ttp di akui bahwa Ronaldo ttp yg paling ganteng di sekolah gw. tp anak gaul bgt dah skrg -_- bajunya ga pernah ga keluar. ckckck yasudahlah.

LDR (Long Distance Relationship)

who says long distance relationship only applies for couple?

it applies for any kind of relation.

brotherhood, sisterhood, friendship, and sometimes even family.

all of them have one main reason why their relation screwed.

both parties stop trying.

how can both parties stop trying?

well there are many things that effect a person's mind.

environment, the people around them, pain, lost of feelings.

sometimes i wonder,

how can me and my best friends still have a lot to talk about when we're back at our home. you know, we chat and stuffs. when we actually have been talking about a lot of things back in school. we've been together at school for like 8 hours. how can we not run out of things to talk about? how could there be so much more to be discussed?

but then, when we're apart, how can there be nothing left to say?

how can there be nothing left to ask? to discuss? to laugh at? to be... just to be together?

i keep wondering how wild can a human's mind goes. it's really is weird thinking that someday you walk past by someone that used to be your whole world, but you didn't even recognized them.

it's weird how they say distance ruined relationship.

because that's not true. that's not true at all.

distance didn't ruined anything. here's a proof: when you're studying far away from home. you will miss you parents/family right? so, what did you do? you call home. you talk with them. you're happy by just listening to their voices.

so what does the difference between that and couple's relation? between that and friendship?

it will only be ruined if you got tired of trying. you got tired of being the only one who cares about the relationship. you got tired because the other party seems to be just fine.

you will always have this 'homesick' when you're away from home. no matter how far you are from home. because a part of you is always in you home. no matter what.

so does a part of you will always be with the other party. but then, why do you quit? why do you stop trying? is it too unbearable to be miserable? does it hurt so much seeing the other party looking fine, looking happy?

you began to look for their flaws, you began to judge them. you began to find excuses, you began to dislike them.

what did you got in the end?

did you feel free? did you feel relieved? did you feel happy?

i guess not.

Apology and Goodbye

I once read a quote on Tumblr that said something like this "wanna know who your real friends are? messed up, and see who's still there."
I always thought i wanna do something like that. not to tested my friends, but to ease myself that i didn't pick the wrong friends. and last year, well, at the end of last year, i had that chance.
i messed up, I'm being self-centered and arrogant and act like a jerk. but thanks to that, i really found out the people who understand me and accepted me.
i know, i act arrogant, i'm sorry. i'm a jerk.
i know, i used some strong words, i'm sorry. i'm a jerk.
i know, i have became very selfish, i'm sorry. i'm a jerk.
and i certainly know if you don't like me anymore, then, goodbye.
i'm seeing all of the things that have happened in a new point of view.
i won't regret doing the things that i've done.
because sooner or later, they will hate me.
yeah, i'm not being honest to them all of this time. so i'm sure if they found out about my secret in the future, they'll hate me even more.
sooo, why don't they just hate me right now, lost contact, ignore each other. and the next time they found out about that secret, they'll be like "whatever, i don't care, i'm not her friend anymore."
yeah, i really do think that is the best solution.
they're busy with their new life anyway. so why should i stuck in the past all alone by myself? i should move on too.
I don't think i have the mood and courage and even a slightest bit of excitement to see them in the future.
right now,

I'm going to be an egoist.

random post

"Sleep comes to me, but I keep waking up
I eat, but I can't digest it
These days, I'm just like this
How are you?"

"Whenever I see you, the sun shines down on my dark feelings
and makes me feel lovely again."

"I can't sleep at the thought of my mistake,
I'm a fool for thinking that I'd be okay
Today, no, even tomorrow
I won't be able to live without you."

"I thought you'd always be on my side."

"I sleep to the thought of you and wake up thinking of you."

"Am I the only one like this?
Is it supposed to be like this?
I'm just here,
not be able to do anything on my own
Are you really going to be like this?"

"Anyone would fall in love with you upon first glance."

"Am I the only one like this?
Is it only my heart that's like this?
I'm just here,
not be able to do anything on my own
Are you really going to be like this?"

"I keep telling time to go by faster while lying to myself,
that I'm okay."

"Obsessing over you just makes me more pathetic."

"Even though I toss away all my memories
You are smearing into my daily routines, my life."

"I feel like I'm being pathetic thinking like this."

"You keep walking, that doesn’t mean time passes
You keep breathing, that doesn’t mean you’re alive"

"They’re telling me that afterwards
I will smile recalling the past"

"Don’t say that tomorrow is the new day
Don’t say that after a storm comes the calm
Everything is a mess
It’s spring again to you but my season don’t change"

SMEXY (Smokin' Sexy)

uhm.. hi.

so..... it's awkward.

anyway, there's this guy.. mehehehe..

he's been quite an "eye refreshment" in my class. he's really smart, totally. he used to be in the acceleration class, but he dropped out from there and enter the plus class instead. i have always thought he's good looking but at the same time cute when i first saw him.

the first time he entered our classroom, his hair was quite long, which surprised me. because, really, boys will loke more attractive if their hair is not only 1 cm long. and his hair was sort of messy yet... alluring.

ekhem *clears throat*

anyway, because he entered our class in the middle of a semester, he was putted at the last of our class number, which... used to be mine.

my class number is 52, and his is 53.

soooo, we sits next to each other in computer lab, english lab. and we're in the same group at physics lab, and chemistry lab. and ever since that, my shcool life changed. wkwk.. we somehow got to know each other even though we didn't formally introduce ourselves.

so, today is our chemistry lab. something, well, something big for me, happened.

our group consist of 4 persons, and while the other two are busy taking some ingredients and stuff, me and this guy stays on our table. we're writing the our own lab report. and then suddenly he called me, he wanted to borrow my ruler. of course i gave it, duh. that's not the main point of this story. so when he called me, i looked up from my paper, and there it is.

we wore this lab coat right? and so there's our uniform beneath our lab coat. and guys, first of all, i'm not the kind of girl who have some pervy mind, no. i don't like looking at guy topless, especially with sixpack, ugh-_-

and so, this guy's uniform button is... you know..... ah, i have to continue in indonesian, too dangerous.

kt kan ada kancing paling atas yg dkt kerah itu, yg bikin smua org yg ngancingin itu keliatan sangat culun.

enggak, dia gak ngancingin kok. tapi ntah kenapa. entah kenapa. jarak kancing paling atas ke kancing kedua nya itu terasa terlalu jauh. jadi... ya bagian leher nya lebih ke bawah dikit itu terbuka. open, men. open. dan itu tiba2 terlintas kata yg ga pernah terlintas di otak gw. "seksi". gak boong gw men. itu sangat... ughh.. meeeh... gaaah... braaaaah... uoooo. gak sampe kelietan itu tulang apa itu.. selangka. yg di dpn tulang belikat (anak biologi banget). skin. kulitnya itu men, putih kyk susu. trs suasananya itu. berdua doang. dan wah, gw asli sepichles. itu terlalu membuat jantung gw... serasa berhenti berdetak.

i am not brave enough to tell his name, yet.. wkwkwk kapan2 deh.